Free Fallin'

Dan saya kembali duduk bersila sore ini, menikmati cahaya redup dari langit Bandung yang kian meremang. Belum pernah sebelumnya saya begitu menikmati kesendirian dengan secangkir kopi dan senandung dari John Mayer yang melantun dari laptop saya.

And I want to take a deep breath, and just simply be thankful for everything that God has decided and given to me. As lately I’ve been so busy doing some stuffs and complaining about almost everything, I think maybe tonight would be a perfect night to be thankful and stop complaining. 

Everything happens for a reason, they said. 

And I know that deep inside, God has made a beautiful plan for my life. And I do believe in a thing called “The Moment of Impact.” What’s that? 

Moment of impact is the moment when you’re finally getting everything that you’ve been wishing and hoping for, or maybe get something better that what you’ve been wishing for. And in order to get that moment, you really have to through some rough times in your life and get fall every single time. And I can’t fucking wait for the day to come. 

Last night, I had a deep talk with my best friend, Nadhire. We talked about everything that made us like who we are today. And both of us once had a motto “No Regret,” in our lives. But it turns out to be a big bullshit because both of us do have our biggest regrets. And sadly, it was something that WAS beautiful and we were hoping that someday, our biggest regret would be forever ours. We wished that we’ve never done things or specifically, never know or even worse, FALL IN LOVE, with someone. And that makes us who we are now, and it makes us hmm…what to say… It makes us turn into a person who are completely different from who we were before. 

But yeah, we do believe that there will be lessons from everything that happened in our lives. And there’s no use regretting everything. And unfortunately, regrets are inevitable. It happens to everyone. And it always comes in the end.

And last night, I was jamming with some of my friends, they are Uthe, Jasmine and Bernie. They’re such talented young singers and guitar and saxophone and piano players. I made a song for them, and they’re arranging it into such a beautiful song, based on my poem. And they told me to keep writing and creating beautiful lyrics for them. I couldn’t be more thankful for that. I’ve been dreaming that someday, maybe my poem will be an inspiration for someone, or even better, they made a song based on my poem. The lyrics are 100% created by me. 

And let’s have a sneak peek for some of the lyrics that I’ve made for them,

“Ia datang atas nama cinta,

Berjuta kali diterka, direka

Nyatanya selalu sama; tetap luka

Bahkan membara, menganga, dan kian menyala.”

And I can’t wait for the song to be released soon! So yeah, that is my weekend story. And I had this beautiful quotes for me to take.

You may be in a tough time

but that setback is simply a setup

for a greater comeback.

Cheers and raise your glass, people.

Deanty.