It's been a while since I felt that emptiness surrounds me all around. It's like... there are so many things around me that actually could make me happy and smile, or even laugh out loud. But it's just not enough. I've been self-disrespect all the time. I keep caring way too much about someone I love. I do care about his life, his feelings, and all the things about him. But what can I get? I get nothing. He doesn't even think and care about me. I know we love each other, or at least, I do. But it takes two to love, right?
I've been crying a lot lately. I cry until I lose my breathe. I cry until I fall asleep. I listen to every songs and I cry. I'm hiding all of my feelings from everybody. I fake smile every single fucking time. My life is simply ruined. My heart is slowly being tortured, by how much I love someone. And oh yeah, I am such a dramatic person. I can't fight anymore. I can't go on. I'm giving up on him. But he is just a part of me that I can't let go. Can I be just........happy?
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